My first kiss went a little like this

Hello,

So it's almost my birthday, and I feel like I need to be more diligent in my blogging, and I need a place to just put down stuff that happens, and the only people who read this are people I talk to almost daily anyways.

WOO!

So I want to start posting more often, and more of my thoughts on life, not just the actual events. This might result in my embarrassment but oh well.

First off, Toy Story 3 was AMAZING!!!! everyone should go see it. It was like being reunited with old friends. Pixar did a fantastic job, I knew they would, when have they ever failed us in the past? Still, going into it I had doubts, what if they "Shreked" it up? and lost the heart of the originals? They didn't, it was incredible, I laughed, I was shocked, I even cried. CRIED!!!! So go see it, and if you need a movie buddy, I would for sure go see this movie again, by far the best movie of the summer thus far, and probably going to be the best movie of the whole summer.

Onto more personal matters. I have been trying to read more. I feel like I have been succeeding, (no I haven't finished Up in the Air, I have less than 100 pages left, I just need to buckle down and finish it.) One day I decided to read a copy of The New Era that my last mission companion gave me as a "funny" gift. The Dating for beginners issue. (Sister Riley thinks she is a real crack up) I read the whole thing, I did even more than read it, if you had my copy you would notice that there are actually notes, scattered throughout. My thoughts on what people have to say. A lot of T's and F's, some highlighted sections, etc.

Things I learned:
* People shouldn't start dating exclusively until they are thinking about marriage (which the magazine said should be in your 20's....... please don't get me started)

* Holding hands establishes "coupleship" and you shouldn't be a legit couple until you are thinking about marriage, which shouldn't be until your 20's.

* One thing I thought was pretty great. There was a Q&A part. This is one of the questions "Is it appropriate for girls to ask guys out?"
Answer: "...For events such as girls' choice dances, girls are expected to do the asking. But generally, these events are the exception rather than the rule."

INTERESTING

*New Era's feelings on PDA
" This kind of behavior shows a lack of self-control and self respect, and it is also self-centered and inconsiderate, because it often makes others feel uncomfortable."

It had great things in it. It focuses mainly on telling teenagers to be friends. MAKE LOTS OF FRIENDS!!!! probably my favorite quote from the whole thing.
"Friends learn to communicate honestly, to make personal sacrifices, to be independent, dependable, and decisive. Dysfunctional adolescent relationships put people at greater risk of having dysfunctional adult relationships. Functional, healthy adolescent relationships---friendships---are the best preparation for healthy, unscarred adult relationships"

After reading this magazine it for sure made me feel better about myself. I have discovered I am on the relationship level of a teenager! That's good right?
I have friends! and friends only make you better!

Speaking of friends, I went with one to see Toy Story 3 yesterday. My movie buddy, and probably, sadly, currently one of my best friends in Utah. (I know he doesn't read this so I can say that). On the way to the movie theater we passed by The Cheesecake Factory, where I work. I said out loud, "I'm not going to work in a restaurant ever again." this opened up a fun discussion. I can now never work in a restaurant unless I want to be mocked relentlessly. When asked kind of job I was going to get, I was at a loss. I haven't thought that far into it! Being a smart alac that he is he told me I could probably do well in the porn industry... How thoughtful. This just reaffirms my belief that I will never go jobless because I could always work at Hooters.... Except that is a restaurant.

After the movie we were driving back, and he started reminiscing about a former girlfriend of his. One who hadn't been kissed and she was 23. "Who 23 and hasn't been kissed?"

THIS MADE ME FEEL LIKE A LOSER.
-could we talk about my future in the porn industry? It would make me feel better about myself than this topic.

I turn 23 in a week and a half. I have never had a boyfriend, and never been kissed. There should be a support group for this. I don't feel like I'm a total loser though, most people are shocked to learn this about me. (here I am defending myself)

Anyways, I couldn't let him know! So I went along with his conversation, trying to make it sound as if I was experienced in this area of life. I feel as if I was successful.

Embarrassment avoided. My life as a closet relationship loser continues.